February 27, 2011

Day 14 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

It might be cheesy, and a bit repetitive, but none of us could live without the others:

Day 13 of the 30 Day Challenge


Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

This is my BetterHalf's favorite band. It's also Bephoney's favorite band, or one of them. So I enjoy listening to the two of them listen to U2 and discuss it all. I really enjoy being with my BetterHalf when he listens to it, I enjoy their music too.

LittleOne definitely prefers this band. Phineas and the FerbTones. That is if you count them, since they aren't really a live band. But she loves them and gets excited every time. If there were some way they were to put out a cd or do a concert I would possibly put forth all the effort to make her a part.

Now as long as you don't include individual musical singers, and even possibly if you did, The Beatles. They haven't always been, and I go through different phases but the most consistent is The Beatles.

Day 12 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 12 - A picture of something you love


This is something we all agree on. We are all thespians. We love the theater. It's what brought us together and it's what we have so much fun doing together, I would say the most. Even LittleOne will take every opportunity to be on a stage or doing something for building or recording. We love the Theater! One day we will have one called "The Dream".

Day 11 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
This is mine! You ever want to see me mad, go ahead curse me out... But really you don't want to go there!
LittleOne hates being in trouble. She can't stand feeling guilty or knowing she is being punished.... She's still young enough that I'm not sure which it is more. Though I do know both are very dominate.

My BetterHalf hates pennies. They don't make cents! He gets irritated with them, and thinks they shouldn't exist. He even tried to abolish them once.

Day 10 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with


When I see this the first thing that pops to my mind is all the things that 'The Devil' has done with my BetterHalf. Yes.... Well.... So many stories come to mind. He's a great friend. He's an interesting guy, and so easily misunderstood :). I am so glad 'The Devil' has been in our lives. Even if he has made my BetterHalf's life so much more interesting, actually I can't say that. He's just been there along the way so he wasn't alone.

LittleOne's is also easy. LittleOne, though it may be a little redundant, is..... Kare-Bear. Yep, they are amazing together and so much fun together. I am happy to not know everything they have done together. But also so happy to know they have each other. How we love Kare-Bear. (PS There is a theory that Kare-Bear might be to thank in part for all of LittleOne's imaginary boyfriends.)

Mine is a little harder for me to figure out, this question has made me decide that I'm not really the kind of person that does 'messed up' things. But if I did this is probably the person I did it with. We were really close and hung out quite a bit and made fun of people, and well just everything I got into tended to be with him in one way or another. Granted we haven't talked much since I got married. But he'll always be someone I did have in that section of my life. Meet NiCOlEs...

February 22, 2011

Day 9 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

So there's a reason that this was our wedding party. In the backrow from left to right is A Scott, Johnny-Boy, Atlas, and Babble. Then the front row is Princessa Josephina, Kare-Bear, myself, my BetterHalf, and StateStreet. Now before I go further, something should be noted here, I am not including parents or spouses in this blog as people getting you through the most, because that's already kind of been done in this challenge. A Scott, Atlas, & Babble have really been there for my BetterHalf through more things than I can say! They deserve the biggest Thank Yous!
For myself well Johnny-Boy, Atlas, and CatMan have been my examples and my strength through more than I can even begin to expound upon! They are my brothers. (Catman is this other picture.) They have taught me and helped me always find & remember who I am.
There is really something special there between my younger sisters and myself. I don't know how much they care for it right now. But there is a part of me that will always yearn to Mother them. And through the background stuff I have done for them I have become who I am and been given a reason to keep going in my darkest hour. StateStreet, oh StateStreet. She is the daughter of the strongest woman I have ever known. And she has that strength. She has always loved & accepted me no matter how peculiar I have been. More than that through EVERYTHING she has loved my BetterHalf as well. And no matter what is going on in her life I have seen her drop things to help my family. Even if she considers herself selfish.
Kare-Bear. Kare-Bear has really helped LittleOne get through the most besides parents. They are best friends and really have needed eachother at times. I know they will miss living together. But I am so happy they have eachother through all the uncertainties of life. LittleOne adores her Kare-Bear. And Kare-Bear has given her so much when no one else would or could.

February 21, 2011

Day 8 of the 30 Day Challenge



Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

So this is CookieMonster. She almost always makes me laugh, as well as my BetterHalf and LittleOne. We love her so much. She is also our newest roommate. Kare-Bear has moved out and she has moved in, but I sure hope Kare-Bear comes to visit lots. Anyway. This is a picture that makes me laugh so hard and its a picture of a person that makes me laugh because she's funny, amazing, and humerous (as well as MANY other things). If ever you want someone to hang out with, and you're not annoying, she's the person.
I mean LOOK at it! It's amazingly funny!

February 20, 2011

Mixed Feelings

Just for the fact that it was posted, I think I should follow up...

I did not get the higher position at work that I was so unsure if I wanted. I don't mind, the person that did get it I thought was more qualified than me from the beginning. Though I do feel a little betrayed because my supervisor told me over and over again that he wasn't going to give the position up until he talked to me about it. He never did. Never said a single word to me, though I know he talked with some people. There is a part of me that feels like I just need to be patient, that there's a reason he hasn't talked to me. Then a lot of the rest of me feel's disrespected and mislead. Sometimes when I think about it I feel a new determination to find a better job, or atleast one that I could actually improve myself or truly be helping others. I don't know. My BetterHalf and I plan on going to the temple this Tuesday, and I want to pray about my current position.

I truly don't mind not getting the position, just not being told myself after being told so many times that my supervisor did want to talk to me. It leaves me wondering even more what I am seen like in my supervisor's eyes. Which is something I was already wondering. I'm certain as an individual he thinks highly of me, but I'm more interested in what he thinks of my work ethic and what not.

Despite how I was handled in the situation, I'm certain the Lord's Will has been done. He has given guidance and the person with the position really will do a good job. I have always wondered if they would get the next position, even before I knew that it would be open so soon. He's about equal to me in most aspects, but speaks spanish. And that is something I truly have always thought the position needed that I don't have. Not fluently. :-D I am happy. Thanks.

Day 7 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

I'm not much of a shoe person but this is one of my most treasured items. I can not say that it is THE most, I'm not sure what that would be. I have never been much of a possession person. But these. These were worth me when I was praised by Nicole Warren, there on my wedding date, there on my LittleOne's Baby Blessing, my high school graduation, and the day I realized I would marry my BetterHalf. These are like an old friend that I wear with me. They have suffered through days of no sleep and continual dancing & sewing. They have gone on simple Sunday afternoon walks when I needed to find myself and my Lord's will. They were there when I received my fundamental gifts from my Father in Heaven. Almost all of who I am has been formed with these. They are getting old now so they aren't worn everyday but when something special comes up they are worn...

betterhalf speaking: my most treasured position would be my ring it is engraved with a special message from my true best half

LittleOne's most treasured item, I think right now is:

For Christmas in 2010 LittleOne's paternal Grandparents gave it to her for Christmas. And she has made sure to take care of it as if it's her own true baby. I think part of the mentality comes from a tradition we have. Every Mother's Day my BetterHalf & I give LittleOne a new baby doll. It's when she got her first one and we plan to do it until she has a flesh & bone baby of her own. She is SO maternal.

Day 6 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

I think it would be an interesting experiences to truly switch places with my Betterhalf for a day. And I mean truly switching places so that I can feel all the results of the health problems and everything else. I think that the two of us would greatly benefit from it as well as our relationship. I would love to further understand my Betterhalf. And I would love him to be able to explain me to me better than I know now.

I won't put down a picture for someone for LittleOne to switch places with because I truly believe that she is too young to even have the smallest desire to switch places with someone. She is innocent, young, and my Princess LittleOne.

February 18, 2011

Day 5 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

This is hard for me. There are so many memories I love so much, in reality my everyday becomes my new favorite memory almost everyday. And ofcourse there's all sorts of the important ones. Such as I LOVE our second anniversary, LittleOne's Baby Blessing, Our wedding, Christmases past, LittleOne's last birthday party. And well probably the BEST most recent memory is one I didn't get a picture of, though I did try, there just wasn't any pictures that really came out. You see we have this recording studio in the back of our apartment. And we have the recording equipment, because my BetterHalf is good with that stuff and has a passion that way. Well I signed up to sing a song at a RS event here in a little bit so my BetterHalf was recording me singing the song so that I could critique myself. Well, our LittleOne LOVES singing into the microphone so we recorded her as well and my BetterHalf showed her how to do some of the recording. It was so much fun and full of all of our passions. It was the best recent memory I have.

Day 4 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 04 - A picture of your night

This last week I have been going to work early every day, and I had to work on my usual day off. So I haven't had as much time to do things like dishes and make dinner, and do all the laundry. My BetterHalf has REALLY picked up on my slack and has been great about it! So last night at work I spent most of the time trying to think of something I could do for him to say Thank you. Well I work right across the street from the Provo Library, and that gave me an idea. Andrew has been wanting to read Howl's Moving Castle. So while I didn't get it last night because I get off too late and don't have a card to the Provo Library, I will today.

Meanwhile I got home from work, after a long day and my BetterHalf and LittleOne immediately rushed me out the door again. Along the way to the store LittleOne kept talking about getting flowers. Alas she had spoiled My BetterHalf's surprise again. We got to the store and I told my BetterHalf that I love the idea of getting flowers but I'd rather not spend the money. So instead we rented a RedBox and grabbed some treats. Then went home and cuddled and watched it. My LittleOne fell asleep in my lap and my BetterHalf and I got to simply be with eachother. It was a wonderful evening!

February 16, 2011

Day 3 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

One day a couple years ago we were trying to find something worth watching and just happened to stop on this show. Both of us were instantly intrigued! NCIS: And since then we love it. The character of Ziva brings me much enjoyment & I relate with in just the smallest amount. But Gibbs is ofcourse our favorite. Every story needs a hero that will always save the day and top at nothing to do what is right, even when he's ready to give up.

Ou LittleOne's favorite show is.....
Phineas and Ferb. Pretty much all of her imaginary friends are based off of them. Her "boyfriend" is usually either Jeremy, Ferb, or Phineas. She is IN LOVE with this show, has been since she was like 7 months old. Which was before it was really as mainstream as it is now. Even as I'm typing this she's telling me how she needs to be in the picture.

February 15, 2011

Day 2 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Just a while back our car broke down and wouldn't start when I got off work. My BetterHalf and his Father went to my work to get it and tow it home the day afterward. On the way his Father and I discussed how well they work together. He started telling me how he doesn't remember ever having any issues working with Andrew or any real conflicts between them. I've never seen a Father and son closer. They may have their rough times but on any given day I know both of them would love to go fishing together. They are wonderful, and an example to me separately as well as together.Ever since our LittleOne was in the womb her and my BetterHalf have had a special relationship. I know there are a lot of children that respond to their Father's touch and voice in the womb. But LittleOne would do things like kick me in the ribs over and over again until she heard my BetterHalf's voice then I'd feel her move more in the direction his voice was coming from. And ever since any time my BetterHalf has needed some extra strength she's gone looking to give him loves before most people would even be able to realize he needed them. And when the world's the worst, not just bad but the worst nobody will do but Daddy. There are many times she just needs to know he's there keeping her safe.

My Madre, my inspiration and strength in so many things. But even when I was little I always knew when my Madre needed something. And I've always wanted to be there with her. I've never feared becoming her, I like some things we have in common. She is the most giving, understanding, hard working woman I know. She's been through so much but keeps giving to others as she handles the hardest of cares with a smile. I'm one of the few people she ever cries to, and I love our relationship because of how much it grows. Thanks Madre.

The 30 Day Challenge

So this is the 30 Day Challenge we're doing with Kare-Bear/ kind of at her request.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Day 04 - A picture of your night

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

Day 25 - A picture of your day

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

February 14, 2011

Day 1 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 1: Upload a picture of yourself with 10 fun facts

1.Both myself and my BetterHalf were born in Washington state.

2.BetterHalf didn't like country music until after we got together, despite the efforts of family and friends.

3. Before my BetterHalf could marry me he had to get the permission of all my brothers, including - JohnnyBoy, NCHooper, CelestialMat, and Atlas.

4. Our LittleOne started picking out her own outfit when she was about 7 months old, because she would pull off the clothes and have a fit if they weren't the ones she wanted.

5. LittleOne has always loved the sound of construction going on.

6. One day we want to own a dinner theater and be in every part of running it.

7. In our ideal home that we want to build, we want to own a good amount of land with enough space for growing a good portion of our own food and having a few horses and dogs... we also don't want it too close to other people but close enough.

8. LittleOne's birthday happens to be a combination of both of ours; I was born on the 11th, my BetterHalf was born in July. LittleOne's birthday is July 11th.

9. Originally my BetterHalf was going to wear a top hat and carry a cane for our wedding reception.

10. Water has a HUGE symbol in our relationship, and is one reason I'm so glad we got married at the Provo, Utah Temple. (LittleOne is obsessed with water too... and we have a waterfight every year on my birthday, no matter how cold it is.)

February 12, 2011

Gone - and Prince

My Kare-Bear just told me that someone she loves ran away from home. I tried doing that a couple times when I was like 5, so did most my siblings (granted when I was that young you had to run pretty far to get ANYWHERE since we were out in the middle of nowhere in WA).
But this person is an adult. The person left because their family wouldn't stop nagging them about some stuff, at least that's what Kare-Bear said.
I can understand that feeling, especially since everything we have gone through since being married. I don't know what this person thinks of me, I haven't for quite some time. But I have always loved this person as an individual, if I could talk to this person I would tell them to hang in there. That things are more worth it than they have any idea right now. It's rough, but you can survive. And you'll be more at peace with yourself when you do.
This kind of goes back to KJ, there were a couple times when I first got married that I called her up to get advice on how to handle how intimately my BetterHalf's parent's family use to be. It can be tough. But I have always known that it was with love, they do it because they love you. Now I'm starting to wonder how many times I have done that to my Kare-Bear when I didn't mean to.

On another topic...
We have a new car! We have bought our first car together. We got it paid in full with our tax return. It's a 1999 Ford Escort. The paint job isn't the best, though the longer we have it the more I appreciate it. But it's a clutch and runs BEAUTIFULLY! So no more having to worry about whether or not I'll be stranded at work when I get off. When we got it and then rushed me to work, we chose a name. Sierra instantly insisted on Prince. She loves Prince too. And in some ways the name is rather fitting. It's got a TON of torque to it. It kind of makes me think of say Aladdin or Flynn Rider. A prince just waiting and dealing with what he's got until the best comes a long. I think we'll be able to tame him, or at least enjoy the ride. We honestly LOVE our new car.

February 3, 2011

Should Be...

I should be practicing the song I'm going to sing at the Relief Society Talent night...
I should be soaking beans so that I can make up some re-fried beans for my family to have in burritos....
I should be getting stuff figured out to loose weight...
I should be doing something to loose weight...
I should be doing the dishes...
I should be figuring out what my family is going to eat for dinner...
I should be doing so many things, but yet, I feel like there is something else that needs to be done and I'm not sure what it is.
I should probably be excited about this opportunity I have at work for a possible promotion, but I have so many mixed feelings about it. Before I had them and just when I thought I had them figured out more would pop into my head. I know now. But I don't like my reasons for being hesitant and knowing them makes me even more shy to the promotion. But the reality is every ambitious bone in my body (which is pretty much all of them) is yelling, "YOU WANT THIS!" I should be excited and doing my all for this job, but here I am to tell you I am hesitant. I would never tell someone at work that. I'll take the job if offered to me, but I guess I want some sort of confirmation that this isn't just me being ambitious. I want to know that this is the right thing, and I do now. I just also want to know that they aren't going to get frustrated with me and do unprofessional things because life happens. The reason the position is open is because my friend who currently has it is pregnant and expecting in May. I want to get pregnant in May. I'm not telling them that because the chances are so slim. But the fact that there's a chance excites me more than any woman who has never had to struggle with getting pregnant could know.
I should want this job, and I do. I shouldn't be shy to it, but I am. But I think I am finally learning how to deal with that.
I go into the interview for it today, I don't interview well. But we will see. They have seen me prove myself time and again. Any sign of me getting sick or leaving and they freak out. They like me, they want me. The only question now, is there anyone better for the position? I don't think there will be. I'll let you all know in another post, I guess. But today I could use prayers. I want this job, even if I'm still fighting with the hesitancy.
God be with us all!