Day 30 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

I just asked LittleOne who she missed, she said Kare-Bear. Since she just saw Kare-Bear last night and is going to hang out with her again tonight I asked her for another person. She said Kare-Bear's Beau. So this is Kare-Bear and her Beau. They just got engaged, and I am praying for all the joy that could ever want in their marriage.
This is Mr. Sincere. He's my younger brother. I miss him so much! I can't express it. There's not much I wouldn't do for him. There were some issues a little while back, and he stopped seeing us regularly because of it. I don't blame him. Though I do feel bad for not doing more for him in everything that happened. I wouldn't blame him if he didn't want to claim me any more. He wouldn't be the first self-adopted brother to. Anyway. I miss you Mr. Sincere. I should find out if I have the right phone number for him at this point. I do keep you in my prayers, Mr. Sincere, I hope you are progressing and finding goodness in life. I don't know if you can ever forgive us for not being there for you. But we really do love you. Please consider forgiving us sometime, and know that you'll always be my younger brother.
This is once again MRJ and KJ and their family. MRJ is my BetterHalf's oldest brother. And lately they have had some good times. I know that my BetterHalf misses all of them, but especially MRJ a lot. He talks about him, he also talks about wanting to go to Washington state to visit them. I don't think it will happen any time soon but the desire is there.

Day 29 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

This is Cinderella, and TooTall. Cinderella always makes me smile, as does her family. I decided a while back that she looks like what Cinderella looks like in my minds eye. This picture makes me think of that.
TooTall is her husband, and one of the superheros in my life. I can't wait to get to meet their new baby boy. But this picture makes us think of many things. For one it always makes LittleOne smile because seeing Cinderella ALWAYS gets her excited. She use to call her 'Aunt Pretty'.
My BetterHalf and I were so excited to go to this wedding, this picture also reminds us of good times. It was hard for my BetterHalf because of the long car ride. But it's something we wouldn't have missed for anything. This picture always makes us smile because of the beautiful event, and the beautiful people.

Day 28 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

I think something that all three of us fear is not having another member to our family being added. We probably shouldn't let it be a fear. But just the other day LittleOne was telling us that she needs a baby sister. My BetterHalf and I partially fear how we would provide should we get what we want. But that fear is nothing compared to the fear of never having another one. I want to be pregnant. I want to be expecting. I want more children. I'm ok with one day adopting, but that day just seems so distant. I have been told by the Holy Spirit that there will be another, so I shouldn't fear. But I'm not perfect and I do.
My BetterHalf is going to be on a fertility treatment here in a week and that should help him medically with other stuff as well. We are hoping this will go somewhere. But when I sought out that information from the Divine. I received a 'just wait and find out'. I will be patient. I'm trying not to fear. I know we all are. But you know, when you want something that bad? I know a couple people that know exactly what I'm talking about.
Some of my friends at work recently found out that their bodies won't let them have children ever so we have all been joining together in our sorrow, them a little more than me. Their chances are even slimmer though. My problem isn't with me, its with my BetterHalf (who is SO worth it even with this). One day. I'll be patient. I just have to trust and let that take over instead of the fear.

Day 27 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
(So that it is known, this was done simply by choosing the first pictures I found of each of us with someone we're related to but isn't eachother. No one was meant to be excluded.)

This is my BetterHalf with TC. He completes our amazing StateStreet (for those that don't know or remember, StateStreet is my cousin) now. They were married in December 2010 in the Mt. Timpanogos Temple. At the time of this picture TC was staying with us (or was semi staying with us, he did that for a while before he actually started staying with us). Him and my BetterHalf get a long great. Which is AWESOME! StateStreet and I wandered a couple times what would happen if our hubbies didn't get along. I'm glad to never have to find out. My BetterHalf and TC can talk for hours about so many things, and if they get tired of that they just start playing a game together. Oh yes. I love these two men. Though of course one MUCH better than the other :P.

This is my amazing Kare-Bear. I've already talked on here so much about her. But that's because she's worth it and has a big influence in our lives, always will. Nothing could ever replace or substitute or whatever her place. I miss her alot. LittleOne was talking about her earlier, we almost called to invite her to dinner tonight. Then I remembered that it's Sunday. She never spends a Sunday with us, even when she lived with us she pretty much never did. Sundays are always with her future inlaws. I'm glad she gets along with them. I just wonder why things have had to be the way that they are, in some ways, lately. I thought we were making progress at one point. But well. I just won't ever mean as much to her as I thought I did. And I'm learning to be ok with that. I'm just glad that she does have the people in her life that mean SO MUCH to her. She really does have some great role models she looks to. And I know one day she'll make a great wife and Mother. I really think her fiance could be a great missionary, but for her sake I kind of hope she won't have to wait that long to get married.

And this is once again TC with my LittleOne. TC is great with kids and LittleOne absolutely loves playing with him. He's a great tickler, plus mostly just fun to be around. When he first moved in with us, we asked LittleOne what she thought of that. First she said it was ok, and then she freaked out saying he was going to 'get her' (meaning tickle her). Don't worry, he did and she loved it. Still does. I'm glad TC is around. And I'm SO glad that StateStreet has him to help take care of her. Especially since I know she's still healing from the last year more than she wants most others to know. We really need to hang out with them soon.

Day 26 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you


The Temple, here specifically the Provo, Utah Temple. We were married here and our family sealed together. My BetterHalf's parents were married here and thus sealed their family together. And in another temple my parents were married and sealed us together. The temple is important to all of us. LittleOne already can't wait to go inside one. She has asked me a couple times when she can go in. Here we have received promises, here we have made promises. LittleOne, is named after a mountain which are symbols or the original natural temples. I can't even express how much it means to us. When we were engaged we decided all our daughters shall be named after mountains, temples. Oh yes we love the temple, the Provo temple, more than can be expressed.

Day 25 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 25 - A picture of your day
Yeah. Here we go..... (Though admittedly these aren't necessarily from this day but rather from an every day activity around here)....

The day usually begins with one of us taking CookieMonster to school or work, and then going back to bed for a bit. Then whenever I feel rested or LittleOne does, we get up. LittleOne is NOT a morning person and insists on cuddles when she first wakes up. She likes cuddles quite a bit. So we usually cuddle and watch DisneyJunior or a movie.
Then the day consists of whatever needs to be done that day- cleaning, cooking, phone calls, or whatever. We eventually race to my room and wake up my BetterHalf with a big hug and I love yous.
More things to do and then I head to work, or if they need the car they give me a ride. Either way I give loves and leave to annoy people with phone calls asking for their time. From what I understand the next thing that usually happens is LittleOne & my BetterHalf's cuddletime. Then they do things like build forts or visit people and all sorts of that stuff. Oh and can't forget Legos. LittleOne loves legos.
By the time I get home from work it's around 10pm. So we unwind & I have dinner then we start getting LittleOne ready for bed. Which often leads to LittleOne trying to convince us to let her sleep in the living room.
We win in the end and after prayers (sometimes with CookieMonster, if shes home and awake) & scriptures which are often done like this- using a book with scripture pictures that leads to a discussion. Other times its actually reading scriptures. Then more cuddles, and loves. And bed time for LittleOne. After relaxing a little more and possibly getting other needs done. Often some cleaning. We all head to bed.

Day 24 of the 30 Day Challenge

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
So this comes back to the title of this Blog. We don't understand it, and are quite a bit grateful for all of it. But if we could we would probably change all of the medical problems we have been through. I'm sure they have a purpose. I'm sure there is much good there and we have progressed. But still.... I'm not sure it's something we would choose in any way. And definitely have wanted to change it, MANY times.