Last night I was reading LittleOne this book as a night time story. And it made me start thinking; when I first graduated High School I had this confidence. I knew things would be tough, but I was sure I could handle it. And I realized that a lot of this had to do with the confidence & support my NameSake and her amazing husband, my UncleD gave me through high school.
A while back UncleD & I were talking and he stated how they expected me to get through college quickly and be doing great things. That was my plan, looking back I'm pretty sure I could have done it. I wouldn't exchange it though for what I have now. I have a family I wouldn't exchange for anything. But I don't think I would be able to get through what I need to, and what I needed to without their help. I have accomplished a lot just not what we all thought I would. And I'm not done yet...
Thank you my NameSake! Thanks UncleD! I know the both of you have touched and helped mold more kids than I can even begin to realize but that doesn't make what you do for me any less. Oh the Places I'll go because I'm not a lone, and because when I'm down, someone has already shown me that I have what it takes to get back up out of the slumps. :-D
I was thinking about this last night. I've been beating myself up over the last year because I feel as if I have not been successful at anything. I made a promise at my Mom's funeral that I would let her live through me. I fully meant that and over the last year I've felt like I have been failing at that, too, which hurt more than anything. Last night, though, I realized that my Mom would be more proud of me for where I am now then she would if I had already graduated from college and was living my former dream (graduate at 21, get married at 22, focus on career for a few years and then have baby). I remember how concerned she was that I was going to stick to that plan and pass up excellent family opportunities. Family was everything to her and now it is to me, too. I know that she would be proud of you.
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